My Source Of Help

By Stanley Har 

Until Jesus came into my life, I was struggling with my business and with all kinds of guides except the true Guide. My struggle was in vain and as I became more and more anxious I consulted mediums, astrologers, palm readers, soothsayers, bomohs and fortune tellers. I kept going back for consultations costing more money even when there was no improvement in my business and as my debts mounted. Problems with family and marriage grew more and more serious because of my financial problems.

I was confused and frustrated and became arrogant, angry and hot-tempered. Because of my circumstances I was drawn into the worldly prescription for happiness-wine, women and song. I also became a heavy smoker and a gambler. Nothing seemed to be right with what I did and further consultations with mediums of the occult made me more confused and worried. 

As a way out, a well meaning friend brought me to see a Siamese spiritualist although I sensed fear and uneasiness in this encounter I became possessed by the spirit for the next seven years. I made talisman and ‘tangkai’ amulets that were believed to provide protection and power, but despite all these religious artifacts, I was suffering as I have no peace nor joy and no improvement in my business life. I even sacrificed my last few dollars to buy ‘holy oil’ and flowers to worship the spirit and failed to receive any blessing. Even the bar (spirits) business that I had invested in did not improve and as it became worse I became addicted to drinks and would drink to forget my troubles. 

During this miserable period of life, my wife and I discussed divorce and I contemplated suicide as a way. I searched and consulted so-called higher gods and suffered. These bondages were so serious that I was no longer in control of my life as my body was possessed by this ‘unholy spiritual’ marriage.

Then one day a Christian friend came to my house to try and sell me life insurance. He also shared how he nearly went bankrupt and came back to God. God saw to his needs and helped him and delivered him from poverty and his helpless situation. He also shared about the power of the name of Jesus. That night as usual I could not sleep but I sensed an unusual peace. The whole night I was wondering about the God that he worshipped. 

Who is Jesus? He was so great and powerful to see my friend’s needs and fulfilled his desire. Why had my many gods blind and deaf to my suffering? I was very desperate to call Jesus but I could not get the words out of my mouth. After that I dreamed of a beautiful woman asking me for marriage. When I asked her to come nearer, she changed into a ‘beast’. I was so disturbed and woke up shouting at the ‘beast’ to leave me alone in Jesus’ name. 

Thank God for His grace! I accepted the Lord Jesus Christ as my Saviour, my Lord and my Master that day.

From that day on, God started to change me. At that time, I had started my Fire Protection Engineering firm. I was laden with many heavy debts. All I had was a small desk and a borrowed typewriter from a neighbour. I asked the Lord Jesus to help me and in two months time, I was awarded with construction projects in fire protection in addition to my usual servicing and maintenance works. 

God had blessed me abundantly all these years in miraculous ways. He also healed my marriage and I realized I had a lovely wife. He also replaced not only what I had lost but also multiplied them. All I have to do is to have faith, obey and trust Him and to make Jesus my Lord over everything in whatever I do.

There are so many good things to share, for example, how I was awarded my biggest contract. This contract involved installing a fire protection system for the biggest supermarket building at that time. During that time I was not even pre-qualified to get the tender document forms. 

My business registration had expired. The owner rang and asked me why I had not tender. I told the owner I was not informed about the tender and I would not be able to afford the tender document fees. The owner then asked me to pick up the tender documents personally from him. When I saw the documents, I threw them aside and said “Oh God, that job is like moving a mountain!” I realised that I was not able to fill or complete the documents. At that time, I had no clerical help, but only my inexperienced wife to help me. My business address was my home. I had no past job references, no experience and no bank facilities. I took this almost blank document with price detail and submitted it to the owner. 

The owner looked at the price and rejected it. He asked me to revise it within two days. I replied that I could not complete the document in two days. So the owner tore up the uncompleted document and asked for only the revised price section which I gave. Getting the contract was a miracle. I was awarded the contract worth half a million ringgits, my biggest contract then.

However, after getting the contract, trouble started again. I had no staff, no bank credit and no expertise. How could I complete the job? However, Jesus assured me that everything would be all right if I just seek after Him. I claimed the contract and its fulfillment just like Joshua did for the Promised Land in the Bible. But doubts crept in concerning my finances which were short and the devil whispered to me that I could not complete the contract and could be sued. Again I sought Jesus and I spoke against the devil saying, ”In Jesus’ name I command you to shut out and I want you to know that though I can’t, Jesus can. He is in me.” I prayed for a miracle to happen and this happened when the management decided to offer me all the materials. 

The next problem was the workmen. All left me except six, and of these six, two of them were unable to work as they were attacked by local gangsters when they were having their holidays. Another died in a motor-cycle accident and another fell down from a scaffolding. Without the workmen I could not complete the contract. 

I prayed to Jesus once again and a fat man came to ask for work. I decided to take him on even though he could not hold a hammer properly. And during work he started to manifest evil spirits. As I was already familiar with deliverance, I took authority in the name of the Lord Jesus and commanded the spirits to come out of this fat man and he was completely delivered. 

When he came to his senses he did not know about the manifestations and it was this man who went back to his village to bring a group of farmers (rather than plumbers) to work for me. These are the workers who completed the contract for me within the time allotted. My plight which was well known to the other contractors become a joke but the power of God was undeniable as I depended on Him. He saved me once again in my business!

More project were given to me even though I did not have the contacts. God provided me with overdraft bank facilities and workers to complete all of them including a contract which other contractors refused to accept as the employer was known to be a bad paymaster and had caused other business failures. I ask the Lord’s favour once again and receive prompt payment and cooperation from this “blacklisted’’ employer and the contract was completed successfully with all moneys due to me paid.

All these business experiences lead me to believe that if I look to God for His provisions, He will deliver.Matthew 6:33 says, “ But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, all these things will be given to you as well” I have claimed this verse over again and again in my business. As believer in Jesus, I now have peace, joy, and sound mind. I claim His power with signs, wonder and miracles in difficult situations. My business philosophy is to seek Jesus as my Guide and He never fails me. I thank God for His love, mercy and bountiful grace over me, my family and my business.